Monthly Archives: January 2026

Connecting, Embracing Unknown, Vulnerability

So Many Different Worlds

So many different worlds,
So many different suns,
And we have just one world,
But we live in different ones.

Those lines from Brothers in Arms — old words still not yet lived — echo with painful resonance today.

We are still at war.

Not the war of battlefields with clear lines — but a war of competing realities and a nation torn at its seams.

In Minneapolis this January, the killing of Renée Good, a 37-year-old U.S. citizen shot and killed by an ICE agent, sparked shock and outrage. Her death — now ruled a homicide with multiple gunshot wounds by medical authorities — has ignited protests, legal scrutiny, and national debate over use of force by federal immigration agents. 

And just this weekend, another person was fatally shot by federal agents in south Minneapolis — the second such deadly encounter in recent weeks — drawing tens of thousands into streets and fueling massive demonstrations. 

These are not distant battles. They are here, on our streets. They touch parents, neighbors, nurses, clergy, ordinary people who showed up to stand for peace — and now grieve a life lost. 

“Now the sun’s gone to hell, and
The moon’s riding high…”

I was profoundly moved by the moral courage I saw — people standing in the cold in Minnesota, clergy on their knees at the airport to block deportations, risking arrest, refusing to look away. 

And I was moved by the words of Mark Carney at Davos — proud to be Canadian, urging cooperation, common ground, shared humanity.

Yet even with all that heart and hope, someone was killed.

Again, there are many conflicting narratives about what happened, but murder is murder and should not be happening when people rise to protest and speak out. These deaths deepen the grief and fracture the fragile trust we have in each other and in our institutions.
“Every man has to die… But it’s written in the starlight…”

We are fools to make war — on our brothers in arms, on our own people — and it sure feels like our government is bent toward that very thing. 

I don’t understand the venom, the dehumanization, the hate that is so casually dished out — across media, across lines of ideology, across dinner tables.

I do believe we are being torn apart.
And I don’t know what will stop it —
But it won’t come from guns, bloodshed, and hate — I am certain of that.

Maybe — as Mark Carney suggested — if nations, if people, act together from the middle ground; if middle states find shared humanity rather than competition; if compassion becomes the law of the land… — perhaps then we will remember that might does not make right.

“We’re fools to make war
On our brothers in arms.”

Community, Connecting, Embracing Unknown

I Want It To Make Sense – It Isn’t Possible

Here’s the thing for me — I want to understand it.
I want it to make sense. I want to settle the fear.
But that isn’t possible anymore.

Every time something horrific happens, I get driven to the news, to the screen, trying to make sense.
9/11. January 6. George Floyd. The COVID outbreak.
And now ICE and the recent shootings and deaths — the one in Minnesota is another I want to understand — and I can’t.

Then comes the political spin — “all self-defense,” “they deserved it.”
That enrages me on so many levels.

Murder is never a solution — much less something that is good for anyone.

I have talked to enough people who have killed to know this:
none of them believe that was what they wanted.
None of them walk away untouched.

War veterans with PTSD carry this truth in their bodies.
The people sent to “protect” our country often return unable to metabolize what they have seen — or what they were required to do.
That is trauma. Not victory.

So when we say that someone — anyone — deserves to die or be shot, especially on our streets, we are denying what we already know to be true.

Law enforcement.
Citizens.
Undocumented immigrants.

No one needs to be gunned down.
And saying that it’s okay — saying it’s justified — only deepens the violence we claim to be trying to stop.

And still, it seems we need an enemy.
We make them because it is unbearable to say, I was wrong.
To feel the shame of actions born from misinformation or partial truth.
So we defend, protect, blame — and that reflex spreads everywhere.

I watched Wicked: Part II last night.
Did you know the original Wizard of Oz came out just before WWII?
I couldn’t watch that one — the monkeys terrified me.
But Wicked, especially Part II, speaks directly to this moment.

The Wizard — someone who knows they are powerful will use anything and everything — and the look on his face when he realizes what he has destroyed.
That moment landed hard.

But what moved me most was the relationship between Elphaba and Glinda — and of course, the song.
A song about true forgiveness.
About being changed for good.

I so wish we could get that.

Even here, Elphaba leaves because people need someone to call wicked — as if goodness can only be embraced by casting someone out.

Do we really need that?

I know in myself how hard it can be not to want to destroy the perpetrator — or at least the one I believe is the perpetrator.
We can get so far down the road of right and wrong that it feels like there is no way back.

And yet — there is.

The way through may require feeling so deeply, and owning our part so fully, that it feels like sitting in the middle of a wildfire we ourselves set.

Yes — our bodies may burn.
Certainty may collapse.
Stories we tell about ourselves may turn to ash.

But real connection does not burn away.
What is true holds.
Even in the fire.

Our hearts keep beating — not despite connection, but because of it.

Maybe the flames don’t destroy connection at all.
Maybe they reveal it.

And maybe that is the only path to joy.

At some point, we have to risk that.

Can we?

Communication, Community, Connection, Leadership, Valuing Differences

Finding Truth In The Chaos

There are many roads to travel.
Lately, I keep trying to find a thread that isn’t all ache, rage, or worry.

There’s a lot of that these days.

I don’t want to be someone who simply looks away while my country feels like it’s sliding toward something darker—something closer to a dictatorship than a democracy. And what unsettles me most is not just what I see, but how unsure I am about what to believe.

The news.
The scrolls.
The certainty with which everyone seems to know exactly what’s happening—and exactly who’s to blame.

In my world of connection—real conversations, eye contact, shared meals—people are concerned. They’re worried. They’re tired. And yet, walking down the streets in Oregon, through airports, sitting next to strangers, listening to their fears and stories, I’m not encountering the same apocalyptic certainty that fills my screens.

That dissonance messes with me.

I know the history. I know the comparisons people make—Germany, other moments when horrifying acts were sanctioned while everyday life continued and people didn’t act soon enough. I don’t want to be that person. The one who says later, I didn’t know or I thought it would turn out differently.

I just finished a Louise Penny novel that felt uncomfortably close to our current reality. I’m rewatching The West Wing—loving the idealism, aching for that version of leadership—while also noticing how even there, politics slide so easily into sides, certainty, and storylines that leave little room for real collaboration.

So I keep asking:
What does all of this actually mean for me?

Yes, I can call my senators.
I can voice my concerns about a government that seems increasingly unaccountable, a Supreme Court that feels overtly political, a justice system that appears uneven and sided.

And I do believe those actions matter.

But I’m also deeply aware of another truth I live by: I am not separate from the world I’m critiquing. I am participating in it—through my fear, my projections, my righteousness, my silence, my love.

I believe that beneath all this separation, we are connected. Not as an idea, but as a lived reality. And I believe in love—or something divine, or intelligent, or larger than me—that I don’t get to own, define, or control.

That belief doesn’t let me off the hook.
It actually puts me more squarely on it.

Because if connection is real, then the work isn’t only “out there.” It’s also in how I listen. How I stay curious. How I resist the urge to collapse people into villains or heroes. How I choose presence over numbness and relationship over retreat.

I don’t have a clean conclusion.
I’m not offering certainty or a solution.

What I have is a commitment—to not look away, and also not harden. To stay engaged without letting fear be the only voice at the table. To keep choosing connection as a form of responsibility, not avoidance.

Maybe that’s the thread I’m following right now.

Not certainty.
Not righteousness.
But relationship.

And the willingness to keep asking:
How do I want to be in this moment—while the road is still unfolding?