I have a major project due for completion and I am struggling to get the job done. It’s not like I haven’t known that I suffer from procrastination issues. However, this is one of those times when awareness has not led to new behavior. This project has been looming for months and though I have attempted to pull the necessary pieces together so I could focus and get the job done, I have now waited until the last minute, blogging about this issue instead of doing the job.
So what is that about? I could tell you about my Myers-Briggs type. On Judging/Perceiving I am a high ‘P’, meaning I like to put things off until the last minute. Apparently I thrive on the rush of pulling the all-nighter (this might have been true in college but I am much older now and I doubt I would do well at all without sleep). I don’t like closure because I like to leave myself open to all possibilities. Still, there comes a time on a project when choices need to be made.
Even with all this awareness, I am still not moving ahead. My Myer-Briggs also says I suffer from internal perfectionism, meaning sometimes I won’t do a job because I am too afraid of letting others down, so instead, I just say I can’t do it. Well this might have been okay months ago when I could have said ‘no’. But now I am need to overcome any internal concerns about failing and as Nike would say: Just Do It!
As I have mentioned before, I also have some ADHD symptoms and can be easily distracted.
I could probably dive into some other personality assessment or childhood experience that could offer an excuse for this behavior. It is amazing how sometimes self-awareness can simply become self-excuseness.
Enough! It is time to quit making excuses and get to work.
Though it is quite nice outside—may be I should go for a bike ride!