I live in a community where there is lots of talk about oneness and unity. Often, I feel at odds listening to the discussions because there has been a quality to the conversation that I interpret as a transcending of the human experience to a higher order, which I don’t agree with. However, when some Haven friends presented me with the Relationship Equation: 1 x 1=1, I had an “ah ha” moment!
Let’s just review some basic math: 1 x 1=1, and 0.5 x 1=0.5, and 0.5 x 0.5=0.25. By applying this equation to any relationship, you can see that if I show up in a relationship as only half of myself, then the outcome, even if the other person fully shows up, is still only 0.5. Not oneness! Worse still, if we both show up only half way then the return is a mere 0.25. This means that if I want to get to oneness, I must bring all of me to the equation: the good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful! There is no transcending, cutting out parts, bypassing the ugly ego, or really any part of myself. This totally changed my view on oneness. I am all for it now.
From a relationship context, this makes complete sense. Sure, I wish only the best of me showed up day-to-day in my interactions with CrisMarie. However, when you live and breath, travel and work side-by-side all of the time, that is just not real. We have amazing moments of closeness, and we have horrible clashes. We also have lots of boring day-to-day experiences. This is life. It’s easy to disengage or try to hide parts of myself that show up at the wrong moment. However, if I go back to the math, I understand that when I take a part of me out of the equation, I miss the opportunity to experience oneness.
I listen to people trying to shed parts of themselves. I am sure we have all tried to stop crying or wish we could rid ourselves of rage, pain, sorrow, or hate. It doesn’t work. Somehow, if we want to be one or whole, we have to feel everything deeply, and then and only then, do we get to know fully who we are and maybe get better at choosing how we show up.
This same equation applies to teams, groups, families, even countries. 1 x 1 x 1 x 1 x 1=1. There is no other way to get to oneness. My imagining that I could do more, say like 1.5, does not help anyone else I am in a relationship with get to oneness. 1.5 x 0.5=0.75. Wow! The math makes it clear. Each of us can only work on showing up fully ourselves. That is the only way to ONE!
If oneness is our destiny, as some have said, then it means our path on this planet is to embrace everything, the good the bad, the ugly and the beautiful. Then, and only then, do we have a chance to experience wholeness, unity or oneness together.
So what do we do about the pain, the suffering, the meanness and the cruelty that exists in the world, and within ourselves? First, we don’t deny it; We embrace it; We own it; We show up fully and invite all of the those standing there with us to show up fully as well. In that moment of intimacy, we may indeed kill each other, however, we may also see God. Does that possibility scare me? Sure. I know I have yet to show up fully moment to moment for very long. But if I do the math – it is the best option.